"Light a fire they can't put out"

"Carve your name into those shinning stars"

I went Laselle because it was my field trip for my cross-disciplinary subject's field trip! (20th century fashion is my CDS if you're wondering.) It's such a beautiful and classy school. Even the ceiling is so cool.

I've always love art. Ever since I was a kid. I will go for all the art competition on earth. I wanted to take interior design. Going to Lasselle was kind of exciting!

We were suppose to be there to do our research on Fashion since there is a exhibition there till 3rd June, so why not right? I really think that place is nicer the SAM so you guys can go if you all interested! It's open till 8pm! 

But I also ventured into other exhibitions like for interior and product design, side tracked I know. It's really.... amazing! Visual vomits.

I remember when I wanted to do interior design in SP so bad.

Spot me? ;D

My favorite kind of peck isn't those on the cheeks, but peck wen. 

#smooth

Went for Strictly Pancake for the first time with CDS friends. I was so happy because the pancakes look so good and it actually taste freaking nice?!?! Now I understand what's the big deal, 

Mine is called "when bacon met nutella". OH MY GOSH, there's like banana and nutella and bacon and ice cream and pancakes.... it's like putting all the heavens into one paradise. I died.  

Met up with this for a short lepak sesh and my day ended!

That basically sums up my very awesome day! I learned that art is everywhere and everything is beautiful as long as you choose to always find beauty. Mid sem is coming guys, study hard okay? Stay happy!

"Band-aids don't fix bullet holes"

Disclaimer okay! I don't wear revealing all the time cus I am fat? hahah. I was just high and rebellious. So of course I have to take OOTD right?? 

My face is so chubby, I cannot. :( Some shots with the very cool SiangFong. ;)

^so awks don't know for what ahaha.

Thanks for being such a buddy, freshie. (Ouch don't hate me I have to!) At least Stazo allowed us to be friends! Thank you for being so similar and for being a twins. You've been amazing ever since we met. It just amazes me how we always just say "I know what you mean" and "Yeah I understand." without elaborating much. It also relieves me knowing that we think that we are normal and everyone is just weird and that they don't make sense. You're such a himbo and that makes me so happy. Oh and last thank you, thank you for inspiring me to dance again. Such an amazing freshie, friend. ;)

Thank for my favorite bueno and the small little note tho! First note so I will definitely keep it. Really REALLY appreciative towards the small little random things people do for me. I mean I don't know if I deserve all these little nice things people do for me, but it does make me super happy. Although I can't express myself properly but please do know that I am super super grateful. 

Soi Thai for dinner ya?

Dinner and study date with my very very awesome and helpful classmates. I like how I can be myself in so many places, and that includes around my very bimbo classmates. To me I'm super lazy, and I to be very honest I don't know if I will tutor people if they ever ask me to help them (not like I am capable, I'm just imagining hahah. ) I mean I can just use that time to study my own shit because MST is next week? But my friends are like willing to teach and tutor us (not us just me) when they can just study themselves. So so so helpful and grateful! Thanks LiXuan and YuSang, if not I think I will just flunk and cry my whole life. 

Accompanied Jerlyn back to her idiot tns bunk because she is a scary cat but I love her. That basically summed up my day.

Just some thoughts:
Just when I think that everyone is just plain evil, insensitive, selfish and judgemental, there's so many others that are so beautiful, with a shining heart. I just get sooooo confused. But I think I rather live for what that shines. I wanted to give up on being nice because everybody just takes advantage of it, but I look at those with a heart of gold, and I know I have more to give. Taking in the beauty and flushing out all you negativity because the people around me deserves to be happy.

Ok jerlyn Im coming for lesson already dont rage hahahah!

Back for good, gone for the better. I'm back. 

"One of the most courageous decision you'll ever make is to finally let go of what is hurting your heart and soul."

and now I'll do what's best for me. I still got a place for you in my heart, but not my life yo. I'm a sassy girlllllllllll.

Hey guys. I totally stopped using this space NOT because I got lazy, but it's because I don't want a certain person to know about my life. The thing is I don't even think he reads this?

"It is in these moments of tender nostalgia that I know, something inside of me is still broken." 

But I find it so pointless living in constant misery. Sometimes I feel so guilty when I am happy, because I know at night this is going to haunt me and it sort of feels like giving myself false hope that I am happy without him. Even so, misery seems okay, because that person will always be worth it. I feel like all this time, I am doing everything in my life for him. Being happy being better... Trying to get my shit together. Trying to prove something. I stopped doing things for myself.

But I guess he was a bigger motivation than myself hence I am not sure if this is a good or bad thing. I came so far with one mindset subconsciously, I got to be good for him to see. But I realize, he won't even be there to be proud of me. Today is our supposed anniversary, and it's the first time in 5 years it is without him. I don't know how to feel about this. I guess he knows himself, the kind of conversations he has with other girls, kinda made it clear that nothing matters to him anymore. So it shouldn't bother me too? One thing I don't understand is, we battled so hard for 4 years, why give up on me. Am I really not worthy?

 I just wish you're happy, I have no more words for you. I don't feel like doing this anymore.

and when I'm actually silent about something in my life? that's when we know..

 Back for good, gone for the better.